记录日期:2025.12.24
水区心情手帐:
GAP计划再次延长,至少到明年1月15号之前都得去休养了(棒读)
不知不觉又是一年一度的『双旦』了,坛子的默认背景也跟着换了。然而今年的『双旦』却是在凄凉中度过,尽管我知道我前段时间不该如此犯傻而【犯错】(不止是因为家庭和职场上的原因),也不该为他人而活。只是作为人类的我不知道这一点,连上网都要内耗,确实是不应该。即使自己的价值观是『完全正确』了,态度端正了,心态良好,社会经验也不少的情况下,但还是存在因自己毫无边界感的行为对某些人造成不可挽回的伤害且身陷囹圄的情况吧?
可惜的是不止是我不懂这一点,连家里的老妈也是。我昨天晚上10点半的时候,本来想在深圳科技园那家网咖里待久一点的,奈何包时即将结束。为了节约资金,我不得不强制下机走人。可就在我刚刚出到户外想找个共享自行车骑回去的时候,手机竟然又被老妈的vx打过来了。我知道这肯定没我好事情,但是又不得不接免得被扣上啥帽子的。果然,vx那头直接就开门见山地问我在哪。可能是当时老妈看到我这几天晚上都不在家,她做的晚饭到了半夜才被我吃掉,因为她想逼我就范——她觉得我不去工作、不上供,怎么好意思吃软饭,所以当时我没有直接回答她的问题。
之前的手帐也说过这个问题,这里补充一下:不同的地方不同的人,其价值观当然是不同的。如果人与人之间不去包容彼此,反而还没有边界感地去把自己的价值观强加于人的话确实是非常伤人的。然而老妈不知道这一点,认为她的价值观是『完全正确』的,她竟然威胁道以后我再这样就不做我饭了,除非我在家。任凭我怎么去抱怨解释都没用,还在我说话的时候悄无声息地挂断vx。
不是有句话说是『己所不欲勿施于人』嘛?在这里我可能也是过错方,所以说我以后都会外面的时候提前通知家人做饭,这样我就可以在出门的时候也能吃家里的饭了。可是家人也不知道这个道理,所以即使她看到我已经提前通知到位了,也仍然不会为我做饭。在这里我也知道这种话是不应该这么回答的,但是现在的我是被严重伤害到不能自已的地步了,尽管这两天是稍微好了一点。老妈的这句话立马就让我陷入到严重的内耗的状态,正如昨天我的大号在图书馆版区所写的那样,所以我才这么情不自已得这么抱怨或者去解释原因,因为我实在是太难受了。我也很快意识到宽恕是解决问题的关键,所以我就没有再打vx回去了。在以前我都是大概率打vx回去的,不仅没用还加剧家庭矛盾且加剧自己的内耗何必呢。不过在这里我也希望家人也该识相点吧,我是不可能为了在家里多吃几天软饭而被迫就范的,相反我是为了尽快调养自己才『就范』的。希望家人会明白我不打vx回去的苦衷,也希望自己可以尽快摆脱这种可能立马陷入内耗的情况,可能暴露疗法是为了解决怎么去宽恕的其中一个门路?
今天仍然是睡到很晚才起床,甚至到了傍晚的时候我还在睡梦中。我醒来的时候外面已经很黑了,虽然我在这将近一天的时间里也醒过,并且在我管的版区转载新闻+出活动(话说3个新闻帖是真的多,从来没有试过在我的版区出这么多个官方新闻转载的)。活动的话依然是两个周活(1固定问答1开放讨论),我不会让最后一周的周活到了明年的时候还不结束,所以今天就是机会2333333
因为今天很晚起床,所以很快就到了晚饭的饭点了。因为当时我也在家,家人还是给我做饭挺好的()
就这样吧,今天的手帐到此为止()
我看了下苹果猫这几天都没上线,就不@打扰他了,同时也希望他生活愉快,有时间的话来这里听歌也可以,如果忙的话就去忙吧(反正我这段时间每天都会写手帐)
EGOIST - 咲かせや咲かせ
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- [00:31.59]梅 樱 花水木含苞待放
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- [00:50.27]来吧 尽情跳舞 跳舞
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- [00:57.83]飞雪似的樱花 绽放吧绽放
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- [01:21.93]在场众人 齐来欢闹
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- [01:24.96]输了自罚一杯直到微醺
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- [01:46.70]大家围成一圈 绽放吧绽放
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- [01:54.49]我的心也将春意盎然
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- [01:58.67]热闹起来 你是主角
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- [02:02.83]不相上下不如一起跳舞
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- [02:06.08]感谢感谢 不停拍手 跟上节拍
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- [02:13.60]热闹起来 令天地也为之震动
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- [02:21.05]热闹起来 不分老少一起欢呼
- [02:27.89]<02:27.89>さ<02:27.95>あ<02:28.06>さ<02:28.25> <02:28.25>も<02:28.33>っ<02:28.38>と<02:28.69>踊<02:29.62>れ<02:29.90>や<02:30.12>踊<02:30.61>れ<02:31.99>
- [02:27.89]来吧 尽情跳舞 跳舞
- [02:31.99]<02:31.99>晩<02:32.42>ま<02:33.22>で<02:33.41>鳴<02:33.72>子<02:33.93>鳴<02:33.94>ら<02:34.40>せ<02:35.30>
- [02:31.99]摇响响板直至深夜
- [02:35.30]<02:35.30>花<02:35.70>吹<02:35.75>雪<02:37.03> <02:37.03>咲<02:37.11>か<02:37.40>せ<02:37.60>や<02:37.68>咲<02:37.90>か<02:38.11>せ<02:39.16>
- [02:35.30]飞雪似的樱花 绽放吧绽放
- [02:39.16]<02:39.16>新<02:39.66>し<02:39.92>き<02:40.46>春<02:40.81>の<02:41.39>日<02:41.40>来<02:41.61>た<02:41.87>れ<02:42.71>
- [02:39.16]焕然一新的春日快来吧
- [02:42.71]<02:42.71>さ<02:42.90>あ<02:42.96>さ<02:43.22> <02:43.22>も<02:43.32>っ<02:43.34>と<02:43.62>祝<02:44.63>え<02:44.93>や<02:45.17>祝<02:45.62>え<02:46.94>
- [02:42.71]来吧 尽情祝愿 祝愿
- [02:46.94]<02:46.94>晩<02:47.44>ま<02:48.28>で<02:48.49>祭<02:48.68>り<02:48.97>あ<02:49.01>か<02:49.40>せ<02:50.32>
- [02:46.94]通宵达旦欢度节庆
- [02:50.32]<02:50.32>皆<02:50.77>囲<02:51.23>え<02:51.92> <02:51.92>咲<02:52.06>か<02:52.42>せ<02:52.61>や<02:52.69>咲<02:52.88>か<02:53.11>せ<02:54.13>
- [02:50.32]大家围成一圈 绽放吧绽放
- [02:54.13]<02:54.13>新<02:54.71>し<02:54.92>き<02:55.48>春<02:55.83>の<02:56.36>日<02:56.37>来<02:56.55>れ<02:56.84>ば<02:58.18>
- [02:54.13]焕然一新的春日到来时
- [02:58.18]<02:58.18>心<02:59.20>も<02:59.38>ま<02:59.55>た<03:00.13>息<03:00.30>吹<03:00.64>く<03:02.46>
- [02:58.18]我的心也将春意盎然
- [03:02.46]<03:02.46>咲<03:03.46>か<03:03.83>せ<03:04.33>や<03:05.73>咲<03:06.35>か<03:09.22>せ<03:16.46>
- [03:02.46]绽放吧绽放
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